This was one of the verses in my Sunday School lesson this morning, and it definitely spoke to my heart. I'm not always so good at doing every thing for the Lord, not for others.
I am a people pleaser; I worry about what people think about me. Sadly, for a very long time, this is what dictated the way I parented. I wanted my children to be perfect little angels because I feared what others would say or think about my parenting.
Pride also was a huge part of my parenting. For the most part, my first 4 small people were fairly well-behaved and obedient. I would look at other parents whose children were acting out or being disobedient and wonder what was wrong with their parenting as I would pat myself on the back for the wonderful job I was doing.
I'm pretty sure it was at this point that God looked down at me and laughed. I'm positive that His response was to bless me with small person #5 - the one I refer to as Sassy Pants. From the beginning, she has been strong willed. For most of her 1st year of life, I was the ONLY person she would allow to hold her, and she wanted to be held a LOT. Sassy is one that pushes the limits. If you draw a line in the sand for her, she will stick her toe right over the line just to see what the reaction will be.
Don't get me wrong - I love Sassy. She can be the most loving, hug-giving child, but having her definitely caused me to lose that pride. I no longer could pat myself on the back for my wonderful parenting skills because all the things that worked with the older children did not work with her. It made me realize that my older ones weren't necessarily the way they were because of anything I did or did not do. I've also learned a lot about extending grace, both to Sassy and to other parents - the ones who are struggling with parenting their small people.
I wish I could say that I no longer care what other people think about me or my parenting skills. I'm not there yet, but I'm a lot closer than I used to be. I try really hard to worry more about raising Godly young people who love the Lord than about raising little robots who obey simply for the sake of obeying and making me look good.
Do you worry about what other people think about you?
How does it affect your life?